I can’t even believe those words, anxiety free. I never thought it would be a way I could describe myself and now I actually can.
If you saw my first post Becoming A Minimalist, you’ll know I really struggled with anxiety. I wanted to give you an update on what’s worked and what hasn’t.
I’ve been praying for years that God would help me heal my anxiety, and He did.
I just got back from a five day miserable trip to Florida. If you didn’t know, I moved to Maine almost four years ago to be closer to family. As a Florida girl born and raised, New England is a whole other world to me. Job friendships have lead no where. I haven’t found a church, or made any real connections despite my best efforts. Thank goodness my fiancé moved to Maine too, or I’d be super lonely.
All I could think about was going home. Home to Florida, home to my friends, home to my old job, just… home. I had been praying that God would lead my family to Florida for the last couple years. Every time we tried, He stopped us. Why did I think this time was different? Truth is, I knew he didn’t want us to move but I thought I knew best.
I won’t go into much detail, but the drive down was long, miserable, and draining. We turned back as soon as we arrived. I was driving a huge truck that wasn’t mine, in the pouring rain, couldn’t see five feet in front of me, and all the other drivers were confused and thought we were on a race track. Ahhh! Perfect cocktail for a panic attack.
Guess what? I didn’t have one! I didn’t even feel stressed in other situations from the trip.
Here’s what I’ve been doing:
1. Nutrition – This is huge. I only eat food that is rich in nutrients. Fruit, veggies, rice, potatoes, seeds, and nuts. I don’t eat anything processed and I don’t limit myself or count calories. I’ve started a youtube channel where I will go into more detail about anxiety, minimalism, and healthy recipes.
I even packed food on the trip. I thought would only be for snacks, but I only ate the food I brought for five full days. I was pretty impressed it never ran out and kept me satisfied.
2. Facing Fear – I’ve been forcing myself into situations that scare me, from small things like riding my bike to the beach to exploring a new city and getting lost. My fiancé went out into town the other day for coffee. I was talking to everyone and felt so comfortable. I didn’t worry about what people were thinking. I grabbed Dominick’s arm and quietly shouted “are you noticing anything different?! I’m not anxious at all!” He was pretty impressed. He hasn’t seen me “normal” for a long time but always stuck with me. I’m a lucky gal.
3. Getting Away From Triggers – What triggers your anxiety? A person? A place? A Memory? As difficult as it is (believe me, I know) you have to remove yourself from those things. You’ll feel a huge burden lifted. It’ll be hard at first, and you might fail a couple times. That’s okay. Keep working towards it. It always helps me to go somewhere I love. For me, it’s the beach with a cup of coffee. Other times I’ll workout or play some music that gets my mind off the panic.
If you’re in the same anxiety-filled boat, you’re not alone. It can get better even when it seems hopeless.
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