7 WEEKS ANXIETY FREE!

I can’t even believe those words, anxiety free. I never thought it would be a way I could describe myself and now I actually can.

If you saw my first post Becoming A Minimalist, you’ll know I really struggled with anxiety. I wanted to give you an update on what’s worked and what hasn’t.

I’ve been praying for years that God would help me heal my anxiety, and He did.

I just got back from a five day miserable trip to Florida. If you didn’t know, I moved to Maine almost four years ago to be closer to family. As a Florida girl born and raised, New England is a whole other world to me. Job friendships have lead no where. I haven’t found a church, or made any real connections despite my best efforts. Thank goodness my fiancé moved to Maine too, or I’d be super lonely.

All I could think about was going home. Home to Florida, home to my friends, home to my old job, just… home. I had been praying that God would lead my family to Florida for the last couple years. Every time we tried, He stopped us. Why did I think this time was different? Truth is, I knew he didn’t want us to move but I thought I knew best.

I won’t go into much detail, but the drive down was long, miserable, and draining. We turned back as soon as we arrived. I was driving a huge truck that wasn’t mine, in the pouring rain, couldn’t see five feet in front of me, and all the other drivers were confused and thought we were on a race track. Ahhh! Perfect cocktail for a panic attack.

Guess what? I didn’t have one! I didn’t even feel stressed in other situations from the trip.

Here’s what I’ve been doing:

1. Nutrition – This is huge. I only eat food that is rich in nutrients. Fruit, veggies, rice, potatoes, seeds, and nuts. I don’t eat anything processed and I don’t limit myself or count calories. I’ve started a youtube channel where I will go into more detail about anxiety, minimalism, and healthy recipes.

I even packed food on the trip. I thought would only be for snacks, but I only ate the food I brought for five full days. I was pretty impressed it never ran out and kept me satisfied.

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2. Facing Fear – I’ve been forcing myself into situations that scare me, from small things like riding my bike to the beach to exploring a new city and getting lost. My fiancé went out into town the other day for coffee. I was talking to everyone and felt so comfortable. I didn’t worry about what people were thinking. I grabbed Dominick’s arm and quietly shouted “are you noticing anything different?! I’m not anxious at all!” He was pretty impressed. He hasn’t seen me “normal” for a long time but always stuck with me. I’m a lucky gal.

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3. Getting Away From Triggers – What triggers your anxiety? A person? A place? A Memory? As difficult as it is (believe me, I know) you have to remove yourself from those things. You’ll feel a huge burden lifted. It’ll be hard at first, and you might fail a couple times. That’s okay. Keep working towards it. It always helps me to go somewhere I love. For me, it’s the beach with a cup of coffee. Other times I’ll workout or play some music that gets my mind off the panic.

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If you’re in the same anxiety-filled boat, you’re not alone. It can get better even when it seems hopeless.

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Good Friday | Pursuit of Minimalism

Today symbolizes the most important foundation in my life, and I forgot. I got so caught up in my own worries and to-do lists that I completely lost sight of what’s important in this life.

I want this blog to be a raw reflection of my life, and truth is, today I wasn’t perfect. I’m never perfect, but God loves me anyway. He forgives my mistakes. There’s nothing I have to do, or prove, to keep his love. It’s forever. It’s unconditional.

In my pursuit of minimalism I’ve come to realize it not only speaks to worldly possessions, but to my soul. It’s all intertwined. I believe in living with less to focus on more. I believe in nourishing my body with whole foods because it’s a temple of the Holy Spirit. I believe in purging what keeps me from chasing after Jesus, physically and emotionally.

Today is Good Friday. Jesus took on death so we could have life. He knew how sinful I was and chose to die for me regardless. He knew I would put earthly things ahead of him, and he was pierced anyway. He knew I wouldn’t be perfect, and He loved me in my brokenness. I may not have a lot in worldly standards, but I have everything I need and more in Jesus.

What I Eat In A Day – A Vegan Nutritarian

I love seeing what other people eat so I thought I’d share too! I eat a plant-based, nutritarian diet. This basically means I eat an abundance of fresh fruit and vegetables, nuts, seeds, rice, quinoa… you get the idea. I don’t consume any animal products, refined sugar, oil, or anything artificial.

Before this scares you off and you think how limited this diet is – it’s not! I’ve made some of the most delicious dishes and my non-nutritarian friends love them as well. I’m able to really taste flavors and feel good about what’s fueling my body.

So here it goes!

BREAKFAST: I workout every other day, and usually start my morning with a cup of coffee (not exactly nutritarian, but it’s my guilty pleasure). After my workout, I eat breakfast. I’ll have anything from a fresh fruit bowl and nuts, oatmeal, raw almond butter and apples, or my favorite- veggie cereal!

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  • 1/2 Cup Broccoli
  • 1/2 Cup Cauliflower
  • 1 Sweet Apple
  • 2 Carrots
  • 3 Tablespoons Raw Pecans
  • Cinnamon to taste
  • Sprinkled with Raisins and fruit of choice
  • Almond milk (use like you would in cereal)

Blend broccoli, cauliflower, apple, carrots, and pecans in a food processor (I do it one ingredient at a time because of how the texture turns out, but you can toss it all in if you want… the taste is the same!) Sprinkle with cinnamon and raisins.

LUNCH: I almost always have a green smoothie for lunch. It takes me over an hour to drink it and feel fuller longer. I’ll add whatever I have on hand, but always try to get my GBOMBS in!

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  • 1 Cup Water
  • 1 Beet with Leaves
  • 2 Collard Green Leaves
  • 2 Carrots
  • 1 and a 1/2 Ripe Banana
  • Tablespoon Chia Seeds
  • 1/4 Cup Black Beans
  • 4 frozen brown baby mushrooms (previously steamed… raw mushrooms can be toxic)
  • 4 frozen strawberries

Blend! I use a Vitamix. Makes around 32oz.

Don’t let the beans and mushrooms scare you, can’t even taste ’em! This combo also gives me almost all my GBOMBS (except onions, because that would be absolutely terrible tasting). You can also add a date or two for sweetness.

With the smoothie I’ll have either an apple and almond butter, nuts, avocado on an organic rice cake… etc.

DINNER: This is my favorite meal. I like to consistently try new recipes, but my all-time favorite is a Vegan Ceaser Salad, omitting the oil. I top with a homemade vegan parmesan, and roasted chickpeas for croutons!

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Sometimes I add a homemade soup if I have some prepared on hand.

DESSERT: I usually have a cup of tea/coffee with either a berry fruit bowl or pitted dates filled with raw almond butter, sprinkled with raw cacao. Delish!

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I never count calories. I never restrict myself. I never stress about what I’m going to eat like I used to. I make sure everything I put in my body is nutrient rich! I feel healthier, look healthier, and have noticed so many changes in my body. My allergies are slowly improving, and I haven’t had full-blown anxiety attack in a long time!

Hope this gives you some ideas!

Becoming A Minimalist – Journey To Happiness

It started with a trip to a coffee shop downtown. I walked up to the counter, started to order, and became overwhelmed with anxiety. My allergies and asthma were inhibiting me from breathing. I felt like everyone was staring at me. Enter full panic attack mode. This wasn’t an unusual occurrence, but the straw that broke the camels back (so to speak).

I got home and immediately became depressed. Why couldn’t I be normal? Why am I always worried about what people think? Why do I have so much trouble breathing?

Thankfully I wasn’t ready to give up yet. I grabbed my laptop and started researching. I came across blogs about minimalism and dug deeper. People were changing their lives by giving up their possessions. I’ve never been a materialistic person but somehow accumulated way more than one person needs.

The next day I started going through my cabinets, closets, wardrobe – everything. I’ve since taken multiple truckloads to goodwill. I immediately felt a burden lifted like never before. This is the only way I can describe it: the second I let go of my possessions I literally felt a weight lifted off my shoulders and my anxiety began to cease. Could my material things really be weighing me down? Yes.

I’m still editing my possessions to donate, not to a specific number, but to an amount I feel really good about (whatever that may be).

I needed to tackle my health next. I’ve always been a vegetarian (since I was 5) and rarely ate processed foods but something still wasn’t working. I found Dr. Joel Fuhrman and his book Eat To Live. It changed my life. I’ve been eating a full nutritarian diet and have seen significant improvements in my health and body. I haven’t given up coffee yet because, let’s be real, it’s one of my favorite things in life.

I’m using my inhaler less and have stopped any allergy medications. I now sleep though the night without severe sneezing fits, wheezing, post-nasal trip, and extreme dark under eyes. I’m thrilled with my results so far!

I’m changing my life one step at a time and invite you to share this journey with me! I’ll be posting about becoming a minimalist, healthy vegan recipes, and some photography here and there. Hope to see you back here soon!

Samantha